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MD: My dad almost got in a car wreck on Wednesday? He had been out at my grandma's to mow her yard. And on the way back, he was stopping at a light, and the brakes gave out and he just like sped thru the light (not meaning to, obviously.). He said that if someone would've been turning, it would've been a bad car accident. 

He's been looking at the car for the past few days, and decided to do some work on it today (He used to be a mechanic so.), and he came in and told me that "it's not looking good. There's a lot of rust and we might have to just scrap it." 

Luckily, we have my car (Which is a 1980 Ford Mustang HEEEEEEEYYYYYYY. It's burgundy and HEEEEY I LOVE IT), but that car's pretty old, and it needs work done on it a lot, so hopefully it'll hold up for us. 

So, as the title says, we're down a car. In other news, we're fucking broke. And when I say I broke I mean BROKE. We don't have money to pay bills I don't think. (Dad won't really talk to me about it, so Idk) 

I've been trying to keep my mind off it, but...it's tough. It's scary. We've always been under the poverty line, but ever since Mom died and we lost her disability, it's been a lot tougher. I have $6 on a Walmart gift card and maybe $200 in the bank, but apart from that, I have nothing, and I don't know about dad. 

Apart from that, he's not getting along with certain fam members and they were helping with our money situation and without them, IDK WHAT WE'LL DO? 

Anyway, I'm done being scared for now. Thanks for listening. 
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MD: it's my mom's birthday. It's supposed to be a happy day, right? Cake, presents? ICE CREAM? 

Yeah well I mean she'd get all that stuff if she were alive. But she's not. 

This is the second year we're celebrating her birthday without her. She died Jan 2, 2016. (I mean, so she's only been dead a little over a year, but you know what i mean...) 

It's just really tough? Not having her around. Like I'd rather not go into deets of her death rn, but I mean, she was my best friend really. I miss her so much. 
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Track: Can I just first say something? Treck/Julian/BC/whatever the fuck you want to call him, is a PRICK AND HE NEEDS TO FUCK THE FUCK OFF. It's gone on too long. It's not funny. You never were. At first we thought you'd go away on ur own, but apparently not, and I will make sure that you never return. 

Now, onto the matters at hand. I don't feel I am in the authority to discuss what happened last night between BC and MD. It was a horrible situation no matter what, but if MD ever wants to say what all happened, he will in due time. 

What I can tell you about is the ever-growing Devil Child we now have obtained. A few days ago, BC has also dropped off Audrey (7) and Hannah (4). They're being cared for now as well as Sequel and Devil Child. 

Devil Child has a name btw. His name is Satanael (thank you to a friend for helping us come up with that. Not sure if they have a DW or not, sorry.) Satanael is the only horned creature we have as of now. I think as he grows he will find his more human like form, but for now, he is the way he is. He has told MD that he is "here to steal souls," But that he really doesn't want to do that. Thank the HEAVENS. 

He's being taken care of, we're not going to neglect the poor thing because of where he came from. We wouldn't do that to any of them. 

Anyway, that's about it as of now. 

Best wishes,
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Je: here's the deal-io. Julian is a prick. We all know this. We are all very aware of this. I want to give MD a chance to talk on this too in this post, so I will, but first i just want to say my shit. And that is...


He's tried to kill MD on multiple occasions, he's beat him up on multiple occasions, there's been physical attacks, verbal attacks, sexual attacks. Like the list goes on. If you can think of it, BC's probs done it. And that's scary. Not just for the simple reason that THAT'S TERRIBLE AND SCARY BECAUSE HE'S LITERALLY NEARLY DEADLY. BUT...

it's scary mostly because MD still loves him. MD has forgiven all these bad things. He does it every time. Julian could literally hit him, turn around and say "Oh I'm sorry do you forgive me?" And MD would say yes, only to have Julian hit him again. IT'S A CYCLE AND I HATE IT. JULIAN IS A TERRIBLE ALTER. 

BC's not currently here. His energy is tho. And that's a bit fucky to begin with. Any part of him being here is bad, because it only means he's here. And if he's here, MD's getting hurt. And if MD's getting hurt, WE HATE IT. 

Look, I don't know if you guys know this or not, but I love MD with all my heart. He's the love of my life, and I love him so much. I hate to see any of this shit happen to him. It's been torture for him, but also for all of us. I hate it. 

OK I'm going to give him a chance to say something. 

MD: I love Je. I love BC. I love Je. I love BC. I love Je...I love BC...I realize that Je is much better for me, that he'd never intentionally hurt me like Julian has. I know they come from the same source...They're both beautiful. But that's all they share. Julian is a horrible person. Je is a perfect sweetheart. 

Why do i still love BC then? I know I'm with Je. I want to be with Je. I love Je so much. I don't want to ruin things with him. (Je's note: You won't. you can't.) I just feel that Julian could love me too...
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 Je: hey everyone...So, we havent updated in a few. sorry about that. the body hasn't been that great. MD has been feeling depressed and has been fighting his sister a lot. (Which we're going to talk about that later, but...yeah. Expect a post on that from MD) 

Basically, we've just all been feeling like shit. It's because BC's energy has been around and we're all (minus MD) are like UGH FUCK OFF WITH URSELF. 

So uh, I really don't have much to say except, I'm fucking trying. We're all trying to keep the peace. TBH, MD has been a bit out of character lately, in terms of how he's behaving. I don't know what happened to my loving boy. He's not happy or caring or anything. He just wants BC anymore. And I mean, it hurts. Because...well, how about I make a separate post on that? Maybe MD Will want to comment on it...
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 Je: Easter is a special holiday for us. Not for the religious reasons, however. While MD's fam is mostly all Christians and celebrate it for that reason alone, we tend to think of it in a different way. Easter was the first actual holiday I ever celebrated within this system. I remember that, it was a much smaller group at the time when we celebrated, but we each got each other toy bunnies and chocolate and just had a good time, ya know? It wasn't about religion at that moment, because well, we're demons for the most part. It was about healing. 

See, while this was also MY FIRST HOLIDAY IN GENERAL, it was also MD's first bigger holiday without his mom. Easter has evolved in this year to signify MD's, and really, all of our strength. That we can make it thru this shit. 

And now, here we are, a year later, larger in number and stronger than ever. There's something so triumphant about today, it seems. It's only a few months after the anniversary of his mom's death, so it really shows how much we've grown and moved forward since last year's Easter. 

For a lot of us here, it was their first Easter this year. And I made sure that we were all celebrating it right...WITH CANDY. I got every one toy bunnies and chocolate, just like they did for me last year. 
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Ezekiel: So I wanted to post on here. I am usually the one who holds the system together in terms of organization. I set up internet stuff, such as logins and accounts. I help keep people on schedule...I'm just basically, THAT GUY (tm). So, I figured I might as well make a weekly schedule? Or something. Each schedule will begin on Sat. and end on the following Sat. Everything that gets finished will be italicized. 

The Plans are... )So this just goes to show how boring our lives are! :D 
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 MD: Heyo. If you guys don't follow me on DeviantART, please check out the linky-doo here...spider-system.deviantart.com !!! 

And onto the drawings! 


Drawings ahead )
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Je: The first few days I've had with Sequel have been great. In some ways, they've been stressful, what with BC showing up and MD almost dying. But, the first day, we bought him a whole new wardrobe, and toys and everything. He's pretty independent for being 5. Like, he seems much more grown up. I don't know, he's still just a little kid tho and he still needs us. 

He sometimes reminds MD of BC. And that's not good. But we have that under control. 

Sequel is a good kid. I love him. He's my sweet potato. 
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MD: Whelp. 

I should've seen it coming a long time ago. To be quite fair, I did, but I pushed it aside. Basically, I, the host/the body, have EDNOS. And like, I haven't been given the diagnosis just yet, but they said "please get it checked out. you're in potential danger." 

Uhm, so, i suppose I should tell ya all what Ive been going thru. Uh, I throw up, a lot. Intentionally. That's the biggest one. I sometimes try to starve but, it doesn't work. I've just picked up over-exercising. And like, my body image is horrible. I hate how i look. I hate myself so much. 

This all, like many of my other self-destructive ways, were at their peak when BC was in control last year. It's hard to believe that that's all been a year or so now since it started. BUT ANYWAY, we're not talking about BC right now. 

I uh...I've probably gained more weight than lost in this time. And I hate it. I feel so fat. I hate myself. I don't know what to do. 
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MD: Whelp. Je was gonna originally make this post, but I thought that it'd be more appropriate if I made it. Let me start off by saying, that i know basically nothing about system kids...like at all. So, this is going to be a weird experience, I'm sure. 

Anyway, a few nights ago, I believe I posted on here about that nightmare I had? Like, the one about BC doing things that he shouldn't be. Well, we're sure that because of this nightmare, a child has been made. He looks EXACTLY LIKE BC. Like it's SCARY How similar they look. But, he's here. And we're calling him Sequel because we named him Je Jr. (Because Je was like "THIS IS MY CHILD. MY BABY.") 

So, I'm really nervous about all this. for one, children aren't my favorite, two, I'm worried he'll end up like BC...It's just...I know that with Je's help he won't end up like BC. But I'm still scared about that. 

If any of yall know more about system kids than I do, pls inform me of some stuff. I'd greatly appreciate it. 
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 Je: hi all!! So we haven't posted on here for a few days. Why? 

Well, I don't really know! We just haven't had much to say? 

Did we tell you all of PM? He's new here. So yeah. 

God, we really don't have much to say...haha
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 Exodus: Hi there everyone! So we're participating in a really cool project thingy! It's called Multiple Media Month! Basically a bunch of systems are getting together and making art and stuff! We're doing two big projects, One being the youtube channel, and two being we're all journaling! But I wanted to do my own thing! So I'm going to be drawing portraits of each of us, including myself! :D 

I did the first one, which was of MD! I hope you guys like it!

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 Je: Hey all. So, we decided that, in the end, we WOULD make ourselves a little channel. We're all SUPER EXCITED! I've posted one video so far, and MD plans on doing one today! So this is going to be a SUPER FUN ADVENTURE. 

Link to the video www.youtube.com/watch  
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Track: Hello All. 

We've been wanting to try something. We've watched the videos on MultiplicityandMe's youtube channel, and we sorta want to start vlogging ourselves! We're not quite sure if we will or not rn, but please tell us in the comments below if that would be a good idea! We would just be discussing whatever, and probably it would be a trainwreck, but what do ya guys think? :D 
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 MD: It reminds me of BC so much. So I thought I'd share the lyrics on here with you guys.

Maybe I bury my freedom, in you
And maybe I rest in your Kingdom, it's hard to make out if it's true
Please let go of me
Please I've paid
Please find someone else but me
Here comes the order, here comes the call
And I have to follow, and heed to it all
I trust that you love me, or why would you care
But here comes the order, the shackles of scare

What have I done to begin with, To always be bargain with fear?
I don't even know what your name is, it's odd cause you've always been here
Please let go of me
Please I've paid
Please find someone else but me
Here comes the order, here comes the call
And I have to follow, and heed to it all
I trust that you love me, or why would you care
But here comes the order, the shackles of scare

We call ourselves Legion, for many we be
And you will obey us, and never be free
So join us forever, or live in despair
It seems that I'm changing, becoming your heir 
So hand me your kingdom, I'll take it from here
And dare no one break from, my circle of fear...

So yeah, that's that song. It's really good. If you guys wanna look it up it's called The Demon King. 

It just reminds me so much of BC...and that last part with the demon talking, it sounds like him. I just...yeah. 


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MD: OK so a conversation that Je sparked in the comments of a post on here got me thinking..."What is the connection we have to spiders? Why do I/we love them so much? WHAT GIVES MAN?!" Well, lemme start at the beginning. Back near the beginning, There were 8 of us! And tho some of us came and went, it was usually around 8 of us. Spiders, ironically enough, have 8 legs. And we all thought of ourselves as sorta a leg that was moving this thing, the system, to our goals.

At first we didn't have a system name. We were literally just "oh, that's the guys." And that was that. After Mom passed away, and all the trauma that came with that, there was a spike in how many guys were here. Je for one showed up, as well as many of the others, really, including some that didn't stick around. (We had a lot of straying mates for a long time.) And well, pretty soon we were at 12, then 15, then 18. It fluctuated for a while before settling around 21-22 now. But back to the name thing, an old friend of ours once suggested "The Spider With Many Legy."

So that's what we were for the longest time. Then we had a falling out with that friend, and we had a lot of bad memories attached to the name "Spider With Many Legy," So we stopped using it. And we went directly onto the Spider System. It was a nice change, and we haven't looked back!

So that's the answer to our name thing. But WHY ON EARTH WOULD I LOVE SPIDERS SO MUCH, you may be asking yourself. Well that's a fine ass question and I'm about to answer it! I have ALWAYS loved science. I wanted to be an astronomer for years. And then, I found out that I suck at math. And the stars don't want to deal with people who can't calculate shit. I fell out of my love for science around 10th grade especially, when I had THE WORST biology teacher. She just...didn't care? She gave us shit assignments and she just...had no want or passion for what she taught. It showed thru. Luckily, I took chemistry the following year, and my teacher was AMAZING. She had worked in nuclear plants working to find safe chemical bonds or some shit like that? It was just REALLY cool. She sparked my love for science again.

I thought for a while I wanted to go into chemistry. But I decided not to. See, I'm one of those guys who can't make up his fecking mind on what he wants to do with his life. I went to college (for a year) for English. That was because my dad really wanted me to go for it. My mom did too. I wanted to really go for their biology courses, but...that just wasn't what anyone wanted. And it sucked.

Mom died just a few days before I had to go back to classes for Spring Semester. It really took a toll on me. I fell into such a depression that English just wasn't cutting it for me. I drew a lot of the time, so art was still a big part of my life, but I found that studying arachnology on my own was the best pastime. I loved it. I loved learning about everything. Everyone around me told me it was gross and to stop reading about them. That I wouldn't be able to handle it. But I don't know.

It's either between Drag artist or arachnologist at this point for what I want to do...SO THAT'S THE STORY. Lot longer than I thought...Sorry about that!
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